416. Is Ascension What You Think It Is?

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Speaker: Hello. Thank you so much for tuning in. My name is Kara Goodwin, and I'm the host of the Soul Elevation podcast, the podcast to take your ascension to new heights. And I am so excited to be here today. I want to talk about some misunderstandings about what ascension is. In, in more broad, in broader terms.

So when we think about Ascension, this is the elevation of our consciousness. This is the raising of our consciousness into higher levels. You can think of it as into higher dimensions. So there's a lot of talk about 5D, the fifth dimension or the fifth density, and that we're currently in the third to fourth dimension or [00:01:00] density, and ascension is us lifting into the fifth dimension.

And so when we think about that, I think that there is at least I'll speak for myself. I know that for me, that sounds like it's going to be remarkably beautiful and it's going to be this amazing experience of joy. And I'm just going to keep getting more joyful and more loving and just keep having these higher and higher experiences because that is what we equate with higher levels of consciousness and To a certain extent, there's truth in that, but there can also be this misunderstanding about the role of darkness.

And we are having this 3D, 4D experience and we have a, we're still in duality. There is still a lot happening in our [00:02:00] experience. Sorry if you hear my dog groaning in the background. She's, she's found a good place to scratch, I guess. Um, but I know that in my own journey, there have been, I have had understandings, which I, I see now are misunderstandings that the spiritual path is filled with joy.

It's filled with, um, the, all these great feelings and That I need to turn away from any darkness. Just don't give it attention. Don't, don't look at it because that will make it stronger. And so for a while, that was my approach where if there were lower level, darker things, darker feelings, sadness, anger, um, I would kind of just turn away from them and deny that they were a part of me.

And this is. Um, [00:03:00] so we don't want to spiritually bypass because we want to have the fullness and the authenticity, the truth of who we are and what we're experiencing, but what does happen as you keep working on yourself is that you can have more clarity of who you Control over your life experience, your expressions, you know, you can feel that anger and hurt, but you know what, maybe you would hold onto for years or months or whatever, where you would feel this anger and it would just really be a part of you.

And every time you thought about somebody, the same anger would come up. Through your spiritual evolution, you can start to change how you feel about those things and let go of them and not hold onto them so much. But we don't want to be so repelled by the dark that we don't allow ourselves the actual feeling when it comes up.

Um, for many [00:04:00] reasons, for one thing, there are lessons and learnings. In those darker, lower things, um, we may need to be stronger and more empowered and have more stronger boundaries. That may be part of our experience. Well, if we're just letting people walk all over us because everything's okay, and I'm not gonna acknowledge if somebody's annoying me or overstepping or taking advantage of me because I'm going to be nice all the time and never.

Get upset. You're, you can very easily become a doormat and that's not empowering at all. You're not learning and taking the opportunity to grow. Is it in an example like that, but also the whole point of what, why I wanted to talk about this today is because as you go through this path, there are things from your past.

That you may have forgotten about that through your spiritual [00:05:00] evolution may start to surface memories, may start to surface. And I talked about this in a recent live, but this keeps happening to me. And it's happened more, even since the last live, it may have been the one right before this one that I did on Friday.

Um, but. I talked in that one about how this, this, uh, memory from high school came back and it just kind of, it blew me away that I'd even forgotten about this. And then two nights ago, I had a dream about somebody from several years ago. And through that dream through, because I like to write down my dreams, whatever I can remember.

And so I had written this dream and then it brought to mind this really painful memory with this person. And it wasn't something I'd completely forgotten about, but it was something that made me so angry when it happened. And so hurt, I think really underneath the anger, it was rejection and it [00:06:00]was.

Injustice and, um, I think it's interesting to me that this memory. Is another rejection memory because the other one that I talked about last time that was my high school one, um, that was also rejection was really the core of it. And that catches my attention because I feel that there's really just one, possibly there's just one thing going on and, and many, many people are experiencing the same thing.

This is what I notice. Um, when things happen in my world that feel very. Uh, personal and it's like, oh my gosh, I, I'm dealing with these feelings, these past feelings of rejection, but they're, they keep coming to the forefront. These memories are coming to the forefront. And then I, you know, I would not be surprised to hear that other people are having memories that are rooted in rejection coming to the surface and that that might be, maybe there's some sort of planetary alignment that, [00:07:00] you know, is raising up.

Certain feelings for a lot of people that need to be looked at. But the reason that I want to talk about this, this memory that came up for me with this dream is that when the memory came up, so I had this dream and then it made me think of this specific person and that I don't think about that much.

And when I thought about them, I thought about this event. That hurt me a lot and the real and it angered me, but it really, the, the root underneath that was rejection, feeling rejected and. What happened when, as soon as this memory came up, I thought, Oh, don't go there. Cause I felt like, you know, I've dealt with this before.

I, I knew how this memory made me feel and I didn't want to feel that way. And it was easier for me to just be like, Nope, just stop right there. Just don't even indulge this memory. Just keep moving forward. But that caught my attention [00:08:00] because that is what happened with this memory that. Had come up that had surfaced from even longer ago recently that dealt with rejection.

And I thought, I can't believe I haven't thought about this in all these years. I don't want to think about it. Just bury it. You know, it was kind of the sense that I like, but I caught myself. And again, when this dream kicked off this memory, I found myself. The knee jerk reaction was, don't think about that.

Don't look at that memory. Don't pick that wound. And we want to notice when we have this reaction, if we can catch ourselves doing that, that is a real gift because a lot of times we just automatically do it. Our subconscious picks it up and we just will start distracting ourselves. We have a million ways we can distract ourselves.

We can scroll on the phone, dive into work, eat, shop, whatever it might be. Play video games, whatever it might be, but we have a lot of ways we can distract ourselves. And our subconscious may lead us to, [00:09:00] okay, don't want to think about that or feel that. So I'm going to do something else. But that is, we're not getting, we're not taking the opportunity to move that energy because these memories and these hurtful things, these shadow things that come up, these unpleasant things, they're where energy is frozen within us, where energy is still stuck.

And. So if we can bravely look at it, remember what it is, feel the feelings that are coming in. And if we can just be curious about it, this is what I really encourage. If you can try to be curious, wow, this is showing up. This was something that was really painful for me and it's showing up and it wants me to look at it.

Can I do it? What does it have for me? Can I, can I be compassionate with it? Because what, a lot of times what happens, these frozen energies, they build [00:10:00] these protective responses within us because then when things show up in our, in our future or our present, that remind us. That have a similar signature to that, that event that we didn't process, that we saw those frozen emotions.

There is this protection that builds up. So if we have any sort of similarity of this event that's showing up in our lives, where we potentially it's leading us to a similar sort of feeling as these frozen feelings, then this protective mechanism comes up, comes in and tries to shut it off. So we might get really defensive.

We may not take an opportunity. We may, um, we may close off a relationship because we think that we're recognizing subconsciously these patterns of what has hurt us in the past. But if we can be brave and we can look at these memories that show up and get curious about it. And like I said, I [00:11:00]recognized as I felt into and kind of replayed this event, you know, the first thing that popped into my head was how angry it made me.

And then I got curious about it. And when I kept digging, it was like, is there something more than anger? Is there something more? And it was like, I. Felt rejected. I felt that I had been cast out and that's a hard, you know, that's, I think in even more vulnerable place to be than anger. And so I think that the anger was kind of like what I put on top of that feeling of rejection.

There was that pride in me that didn't want to feel rejected, but it was like, well, I, it's just to feel angry about this. I'm going to feel angry. But. By compassionately looking at that event, it's as though I was taking this frozen part of myself and helping to thought out and to integrate it with that compassion of like really allowing it to be, then I can bring it into the [00:12:00] wholeness of who I am so that it.

It doesn't have this protective coating on top of it, and it doesn't help. It doesn't, hopefully it won't color future events that it is afraid that I'm going to get in that situation again, and it may try to preempt it with that protective anger or distancing or, or however that might present. So really Ascension, a really important invitation that we have with Ascension is becoming whole, it's becoming integrated, it is because all of those aspects of us that are frozen, that's energy, and it is our energy, but it's part of us that is not Integrated.

So that energy is not working in harmony with the rest of our energy. And that can keep us from there from a very practical, energetic perspective that can keep us from being able to fully enter another level, [00:13:00] another density, another dimension, because we have parts of us that are frozen. They're not coming along.

So we need that integration. We need that wholeness, body, mind, and soul wholeness. So it's not. Always easy. These are, it's not fun to have to confront the hurt, hurtful things that we've been through. Um, but as you go on your path, it's very, very likely that these things will just start surfacing. And that has been my experience.

The it's not that I'm going and looking for, what do I need to clear today? What is, what have I not reconciled from my past? It's not happening that way. I'm getting dreams. I'm getting just random memories that pop in. That need to be looked at. And what I feel is that because they're showing up the universe and my higher self and God are saying, you have the tools to deal with this.

You, you have the tools to integrate this. [00:14:00] Don't be afraid. And you know, mother, it take care of it and integrate it and let yourself be whole. And that's my invitation to you as well. And remember that you have, you have a team, you have a team, you have guidance, you have the angelic realm, you have your higher self, you have your ancestors, you have so much support and, and you know, it may be depending on the level of what you're dealing with.

You may have angels on earth who can help you. You may have a therapist that can help you get through this in a really, you know, because these things can be so delicate. So don't feel that you have to go this alone. Um, you have a lot of, of help and assistance and. You will keep growing as you will reap the benefits as you go through these things, these integrations, but, [00:15:00] but do lean on the help you've got in the spirit world and here on earth and be brave, be curious and know that you are so blessed.

Very, very blessed. All right. So thank you so much for watching this, for being with me on the live. And, um, I wish you many, many blessings. I want to let you know that in a week's time, I'm going to have a live stream on Tuesday, February 18th with the amazing Jesse Herman. She's going to be channeling Bagrian.

So you can register for that. I'll put the link in the show notes. I would love to see you on that, um, where you can register to join us for free. And, uh, I wish you many blessings. Thank you so much.